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good morning!

some times I have severe anxiety around food when I have to eat, if I'm going drinking, if I have to work, and other occasions where something has to go in my maw. When you have to eat but cant it can be pretty stress full. Not only the anxiety around eating makes things difficult, it can make you feel an out cast and abnormal for feeling so anxious around food. My boyfriend often tells me I'm being melodramatic and that i should just smoke some weed and eat; but it's a lot more complicated than that. The thoughts are thus: "if i eat i'll be fat, but if i don't eat i will fail" and both i consider a major let down on myself (my very worst [and best] critic). So to start the day, i will list some low impact things we can do  to help kick-start the day with a healthy metabolism...

1. have a glass of warm water
2. make a cup of tea
3. eat something small and low-fat to get your pallet started (some fruit, some rice crackers, ect.) 
4. drink more tea
5. make something simple with low carbohydrates and low fat but high calories and high protein (like some Ichiban instant noodles or "my secret weapon on weight loss" wich will have it's own page soon)
6. if you still couldn't eat, it's ok, it can be hard sometimes. smoke some pot and maybe it'll help but don't beat yourself up about it. hungry means skinny.

when you have to work

when you are working, it's hard not to eat. you need the energy to perform in a high paced work environment. some things you should think about are:

• how can i get the most energy (protein) while consuming as little calories as possible?
• what's low in fat with lots of energy?
• how long will I be working today? what can sustain me for those hours that i only have to eat once?

some good solutions are:

• 3 tbsp of Activia yogurt - three times before you goto work
• fruit - high iron or fiber fruit is your best bet
• cheese - only a little as it is high in fat, but it is high in protein and great for your skin
• protein shake - gross, but effective (because nothing tastes better than thin feels)
• AloePlus+ a health drink found in mos grocery stores, 240 cal per bottle with plenty of protein and aloe-vera juice and bits  to help you digest anything else!
• green juice

if you work around food and do not want to snack, get stoned, or something else that heightens your sense of smell,(like heating the food up) and stick your face right up in it. the fumes should gross you out enough to not eat it for the rest of your shift. (looking at it in the garbage helps too)

GREEN JUICE!

The shit is amazing,  per 250 ml (aprox. 1 cup) has no fat, no carbs, 1 serving of veggies, 420 grams of potassium, vitamins a, c, b6, and b12! and because it's green it's obvs got spirilina and kiwis that boost your iron levels which if you do not eat, can get pretty low.

six glasses a day of this stuff will certainly sustain you through the day, with only 150 calories per serving!!!

The Dawn of a Thin Era

I hate exercise! Sports are way more fun, but I am too body conscious to want to participate. So i will diet...more.
I need a stricter plan, certain things that I will exclusively eat and only at particular times. Yes, that should do it. And now that it has started to cool down I think I will start running again, it's too hard in the summer.

Meal plan:

breakfast: 

to achieve my goal, I need to keep up my energy while eating as little as possible

     a) individual Activia yogurt packs (two yogurt cups between the hours of 9:00 and 12:00)

     b) 1 apple sliced with cheese  

     c) fruit and yogurt smoothie(frozen berries 1/2 cup, soy milk 1/4 cup, yogurt 1/2 cup, 1/2 banana 1/4      cup green juice)

lunch:

if you can, try to skip lunch and eat an early supper then stop there. but if you have to eat....

  a) 1/2 package of Ichiban instant noodles, aprox. 250 cal and if eaten with hot sauce they wont have much of an impact.

  b) small turkey sandwich with light rye or gluten free bread.

  c) I donot condone lunchtime, hunger is will power and i think you should only eat when you need the energy.

supper:

another one to avoid if you can, no need for extra energy at the end of the day, but sometimes your folks care to see you eat a family meal, so sometimes you gotta make due with what's in front of you, 

  a) eat small portions, at this time in the day you only really need a few hundred cal, and 1 cup of supper is more than enough
  b) if you're prone to fainting spells or migraines to feign one of those to skip supper is a never fail, reliable option, just don't do it too often to arouse suspicion.

  c) goto bed early, if the temptation of bingeing is greater at night, get a book/ TV show/ movie that will take your mind off of your craving.

Just to get things started:

I'm not an anorexic, I'm not Bulimic, I've never seen a psychiatrist, I'm more like a high anxiety weight watcher. And in this first post, I think I'll just introduce my blog to get the ball rolling...

My only goal here is to document my journey, not to provide tips, triggers, or influences to any other potentially struggling or vulnerable girls out there in Internet Land.

A little on me:

I am 18, 5ft3, 140 lbs. and intolerant, I will not take fat as an answer. I recently had an abortion, the pregnancy left me miles behind the progress I had made in weight-loss and fitness. I started this blog to help me keep my mind on my goal and off food